Sunday, September 11, 2016
A Life Update
It's been a long time since I sat down and wrote a post entirely about myself. It's hard to understand where to begin. I have obviously been on a pretty on-again-off-again hiatus from blogging, and I want to announce that I'm back for good... Unless, of course, my six class schedule, working part-time, spending time with my sorority sisters, being a good long-distance girlfriend, and running Campus DIY gets in the way.
It should be obvious at this point that I've been very busy and probably a bit stressed out, but honestly only good things can come out of struggles in the long run, right? I'm going to try my best to be as active as possible on this blog.
Now that I've updated you on the most recent happening of my haphazardous life, it's time to explain why I disappeared for so long.
After I had come home from my first year of college in May, I immediately launched Campus DIY (which was previously Flora Girl, but that's a whole other story). Being the only editor of the site, I had a lot on my plate, and still do, but launch month was especially draining. And when the traffic and reactions weren't as I expected them to be, I got very down on myself.
During that month and into the end of June, I was just a blob of depressing thoughts. I tried and tried to write on this blog but nothing ever came out of it. I put so much pressure on myself to be better that I was physically and mentally getting sick daily.
Thank God for my boyfriend because he finally sat me down and told me how much I had changed. I wasn't that happy and motivated girl he had met a year and a half ago. I had been thinking so much about myself that I totally forgot that my actions and my attitude affected everyone around me, especially those who loved me most. He reminded me of this on that late June day, and I pledged to myself that I would be ok, but I would have to push myself out of my comfort zone in order to feel like my old self again.
A few days later, on the first of July, I started my "cleanse diet" as I called it. One month without gluten, dairy, or fried foods. I would also load up on fruits and vegetables. Not only that, but I would try to change my thinking as I changed my destructive diet.
I know a lot of people don't believe in fad diets, and I didn't really either honestly, but I think my whole being was so disturbed and I needed to cleanse my life. I felt better that month, a lot better. During my first year of college, I had gained 10 pounds, been eating the same foods at the dining hall day after day, and probably drinking way too many Frappucinos. I think I was also just under a terrible amount of stress because my whole life had changed that year.
Anyway, I ended up losing the 10 pounds throughout the Summer, but at the end of the day I could have cared less about the weight. What really changed was my attitude toward life. I've never looked unhealthy, but I felt it. And I seriously believe I was dumping toxins in my body for all those years. To this day, I am still gluten-free, dairy-free, and avoiding fried foods, although I will cheat occasionally (hee hee).
For the past few weeks, I've been attempting to write posts, but I didn't come up with anything worthwhile. Although this isn't very exciting either, I hope it clears up why I've been gone for those of you who keep up with my blog or Instagram.
Feel free to ask me whatever you want; I am an open book. Thank you for reading this terribly long life update.